he said, "fast away the old year passes part 3"

hi its me with my new year resolutions again.. :p
its been such a tough year. obstacle after obstacle, trial after trial. i feel that i've really changed a lot this year, i'm not sure for the better or the worse, but i certainly have become a 'harder' person. like i shared yesterday, my pride has taken a serious beating this year. judging myself from a third party's perspective, i seriously have nothing much. no money, no bright future career-wise, no looks, no sports talent, no speaking ability and no more voice! (Sobs.) there were times this year when i looked at myself (metaphorically) and could hardly recognise the Irvin of the past. but i thank the Lord for the friends He has given me. through this test of fire i now know who are my true friends, for who else would hang around a chap who has nothing but himself to offer? seriously, we tend to pick and choose our friends by looks/talents/other measurable values by quite a large extent, don't we? whether subconsciously or not. i thank God especially for Joseph, Aunty Rosie, Jon Lai and Aunty Siew Lian because they've always been there for me and my family everytime we needed it. i pray that i would be as much a blessing to them as they have been to me.

i read through my 2007 resolutions and i realise i haven't completed any of them, which is really sad :( for 2008 i shall not be ambitious, i only ask that i get my life back in order.
i resolve to

1)sing as much as possible
2)walk with God

there are so many things that i want to do this year and i wonder if i can. but i shall trust in the Lord's providence for He has taken good care of me all this while and certainly will this year. if the Lord is willing, i would like to attend the Church Camp from 11-14 June, Youth Camp somewhere in December, and the Tuao Mission Trip. If the Lord is willing, i would also like to sing with VC in Russia and during Christmas Carolling too.

so many plans and desires, but i shall submit them to you, O God. i leave them in Your almighty and just hands, take them and do as You please (:

shall leave you guys with my song of the moment -

'i never walk alone Christ walks beside me
He is the dearest Friend i'll ever know
with such a Friend to comfort and to guide me
i never, no i never walk alone'

thank you O Lord.
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